Dear Baby, Where Do I Even Start?

Janice Leong

Janice Leong

A free spirit, pushing the limits in the name of adventure. Janice believes swearing did little harm to children or people in general. In fact, a word in itself, any word, isn't harmful. Harm is determined by HOW the word is used. Janice writes about beauty, fashion, fitness and soon to be all things about motherhood!
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Hello Baby,

Where should I start? Our first trimester was a rather interesting one. I was unaware of your existence most of it.

I have a long history of irregular menstrual cycle that is every 2 – 3 months. This may be due to several reasons like hormone imbalances, extreme exercise, stress, Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) and thyroid disorders. An irregular cycle can also make it more difficult to get pregnant.

With you, I did not have a single bout of morning sickness. I even thought I had put on weigh as my tummy was not as flat as before. I went into a hardcore workout mode for another 2 months. Exercise which was once a breeze became challenging and I was out of breathe – so were you.

My mom and I found out about you at about 10 weeks when you were about the size of kumqat – a little over an inch or so long, crown to bottom. Looking back to the weeks I was unaware of your existence, I could have lost you at countless incidents. Ignorant mom-to-be. But HEY! You were unbelievably resilient in my belly baby.

Many friends and kind strangers guess you are a baby boy. I have a feeling you are a little boy too, call it mother’s instinct. If you are a girl, I will be equally pleased my little baby girl. There are still a few weeks until we meet. Taking care of you and teaching you how to take good care of yourself sound like the most fun and rewarding thing I could possibly do in my life.

Everyone is so excited for your arrival. I am spoilt with many maternity and nursing wear to breastfeed you with ease and comfort. We also did so many activities together like hiking in Hong Kong, catching concerts together, muay thaiboxingphotoshoots with you growing in my belly.

It is crazy how much you have grown in the final trimester and making me hungry every 1 – 2 hours. Sometimes you seem to forget that we have eaten 30 mins ago and has the audacity to kick me. You are a food monster and I love it. You were not so big at around 5 months and I got very worried when the ultrasound scans showed you had only 2 umbilical cord vessels instead of 3. After a detailed fetal anomaly ultrasound scan, it is safe to say your vital organs are developing well. Look how tough you are surviving on 2 cord vessels!

I can’t wait to meet you, my unexpected blessing.

Love you already,